I am torn between the desire to be a freelance designer and the security of employment. The lack of money before I have built up my buisness is hard and one big part of it is that I have a family to provide for. I´m just not in the mood to sell myself right now, and if I don´t do that I won´t get jobs as a freelance.
It would be so much easier if someone just called when they needed my skills. But I KNOW... first I have to show them my skills, so that they knows who to call! Just have to kick myself in the ass and go out there and show my portfolio.
I´m going through all job sights now and looking for an employment that would suit me and my skills, perhaps the perfect one is out there?
How do you handle this constant struggle?